Painting by Edmond W. Greacen - Ethol with Roses |
In a somewhat overwhelmed moment I told my husband I wasn't sure this has been worth it and that I might never actually get a job.
He said he knows it was worth it. My confidence and attitude is so much better. My interest in learning is back. My stamina and energy level really has increased since I have been pushing myself to the limit day after day. Physically I still have a lot of issues and I have more than a few emotional scars from the trauma of the past 6 years but I feel very different about myself right now. I feel a sense of value and direction in my life once again.
I don't know what will happen next.
Maybe I will get a job soon.
Maybe I need to get even more training somewhere.
Maybe I should go on a trip.
I think I might just relax and take some time to smell the roses!